{"id":28,"date":"2016-01-08T00:17:02","date_gmt":"2016-01-08T00:17:02","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/laurelantur.com\/index.php\/2016\/01\/08\/2016-1-7-intimacy-and-art\/"},"modified":"2016-01-08T00:17:02","modified_gmt":"2016-01-08T00:17:02","slug":"2016-1-7-intimacy-and-art","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mysticalexpressivearts.com\/index.php\/2016\/01\/08\/2016-1-7-intimacy-and-art\/","title":{"rendered":"Intimacy and Art"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Relationship are hard, and what is hard about them, i think, is maintaining intimacy while also just going through day to day shit, including wanting everyone to leave you the fuck alone.&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>I recently ended a 7 year relationship. Intimacy was one of the issues. Physical and emotional. We were just kind of friends, except, she didn&#8217;t feel like a friend. I didn&#8217;t feel like I could really be myself with her or talk to her about the stuff I was thinking about. She&#8217;d always get distracted or something would interrupt and she&#8217;d changed the subject. She knew this bothered me, and she felt bad, but we just couldn&#8217;t seem to fix it.&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>As soon as we broke up, my issues with my body came to the forefront like Dracula rising from his coffin. Those are a real barrier for me. Sometimes it is just so much work to get over yourself enough to really be with the other person.&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>So the body, it&#8217;s flaws and uglies, intimacy, sexuality, these are all things I love to explore in my art work, but it is <em>hard<\/em>. It makes people uncomfortable. It makes me uncomfortable. No one talks about this stuff anymore. I remember talking about it when I was younger, but as you get older, good lord, you just want some dignity.&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Although I have been spending a lot of time by myself lately, and loving it, I have also been cultivating new friendships, and deepening existing ones. I&#8217;m daring to really be myself, to talk about the things that are actually on my mind. Why else be friends?<\/p>\n<p>This what I&#8217;ve been pondering as I made this pair of watercolor paintings, with some ink. Friendships that lead to love (even with yourself), self acceptance, bodies, intimacy, awkwardness.<\/p>\n<figure style=\"width: 1891px\" class=\"wp-caption alignnone\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/static1.squarespace.com\/static\/5181e760e4b04f94760cb317\/51832db8e4b0046126d0409f\/568eff6b40667a8478358a9d\/1452212089792\/\/img.jpg?w=900\" alt=\"I'll Show You Mine, 2016, Watercolor.\"\/><figcaption class=\"wp-caption-text\">I&#8217;ll Show You Mine, 2016, Watercolor.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<figure style=\"width: 1869px\" class=\"wp-caption alignnone\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/static1.squarespace.com\/static\/5181e760e4b04f94760cb317\/51832db8e4b0046126d0409f\/568effb7d8af1055c06eb70c\/1452212162179\/DSCN5897.jpg?w=900\" alt=\"If You Show Me Yours,\u00a02016, Watercolor\"\/><figcaption class=\"wp-caption-text\">If You Show Me Yours,\u00a02016, Watercolor<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Relationship are hard, and what is hard about them, i think, is maintaining intimacy while also just going through day to day shit, including wanting everyone to leave you the fuck alone.&nbsp; I recently ended a 7 year relationship. Intimacy was one of the issues. Physical and emotional. We were just kind of friends, except, she didn&#8217;t feel like a [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-28","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/mysticalexpressivearts.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/28","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/mysticalexpressivearts.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/mysticalexpressivearts.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mysticalexpressivearts.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mysticalexpressivearts.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=28"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/mysticalexpressivearts.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/28\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/mysticalexpressivearts.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=28"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mysticalexpressivearts.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=28"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mysticalexpressivearts.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=28"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}