The past few years I’ve been at the tail end of perimenopause. Hopefully will go into full menopause ANY DAY NOW PLEASE. It really is like going through puberty, so many changes, in every aspect of my life.
I saw the video below on TikTok and really loved it. IFfirmations!
In the Find Your Joy class I am taking, the teacher said to think of our art as our refuge. I love this idea. But, like the video below says, I don’t quite believe it.
MY ART IS MY REFUGE versus WHAT IF my art is my refuge.
What would be different?
I’d be more private about it. I would care less what others think of it. I’d be more in the moment of making it. I’d see the development of artistic skills as a way to improve my visual fluency instead of something to make my art more impressive or sellable.
When I think also about the idea from Seth Godin about staying in alignment with “What is this for” I feel a lot of fear but also excitement. I do feel like there is this veil right now between the art I want to make (and have been able to make in the past) and what I am actually doing. I am distracted and only able to work for short spurts. Part of it is my caffeine consumption. But it is also my expectations.
Being in my WHAT IS THIS FOR headspace doesn’t mean I am making amazing work. Like Seth Godin says, I need to also remember THIS MAY NOT WORK and take the risk. I need to do the work, over and over and over again and stop REALLY STOP being disappointed in the results, just be in the MOMENT.